Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I am hardcore looking at grad school. I may just be able to swing to February 15th deadline, it all depends on my recommendation letters, and if they feel they can get them done in the next month. Otherwise I wait another two years. I suppose it could be worse, but still. I also decided that I will be taking some business and economics classes (not for credit). But I feel that if I ever want to run a non-profit art center (which I think I will at some point) I need to have some basics in that department.
I'm again looking for another job, as my seasonal position is over now (and a week before I had expected it to be).
I am teaching myself photoshop, and screen printing in the very near future. I have all of my materials, but I have to build the screen thingy first.
I may be volunteering again soon....I received another call-back a minute ago.
Let's see, I pick up my work from another show that is finished on the 7th. And then I will try to apply/get into more shows for this next year. I'm starting to get artsy up in here again...watch out world.
I am just hoping to GOD that next year will be better than the last. This year almost killed me....multiple times and in multiple ways. So I only have to get through the rest of the day, and I'm home free. Wooooooooooooooo!
(enthusiasm, it's all I need to have, apparently. *wink*)
Saturday, December 27, 2008
"When a person places the proper value on freedom, there is nothing under the sun that he will not do to acquire that freedom. Whenever you hear a person saying he wants freedom, but in the next breath he is going to tell you what he won't do to get it, or what he doesn't believe in doing in order to get it, he doesn't believe in freedom. A person who believes in freedom will do anything under the sun to acquire...or preserve his freedom."
another one I'm gonna remember in the next few weeks...
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
The difference is that I now feel I have nothing to lose in trying. In a way, I feel that I have already lost most of the things I could stand to lose by taking that chance. So I figure, why not go for it. But I think that in the last few years or so, I have finally found that underground well of stored courage that has made me want to go beyond that of mere chance. As in, I want to do the things I was once fearful of.
Now I want to face my fears head on. Every single last one of them. I want to find them, look them in the eyes, and challenge them. I want to take back what they took from me for years. I want it back, and I'll get it. That's. It.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
and a link to the blog inter
ETA: I am posting the whole interview below, as well.
Shana R. Goetsch interview
Featured artist Shana R. Goetsch
What is the most frustrating thing about being an artist?
Saturday, December 13, 2008
I've got to say, I think that that is one of the most excellent book titles I've ever encountered, in terms of how much it made me THINK. Two words, and they made me think so hard and so often.
Those words are making me think again, and for the next piece, whatever I do, it will have some semblance of those words in them.
The words themselves are just so simple, and they could seem to not even make sense alone, and with no discernible context, but if you put them together... and if you ask yourself further questions about the words and what they might mean, you begin to build a story or a narrative. So I have been thinking over the past few months, what those words would mean to me, and in what context I would place them.
I wondered, what could possibly be so bad that the stars would scream? And who are they screaming for? What would make the stars in the sky have such extreme emotion; outrage and anger perhaps....or even desperation? What or whom could do that? The answer I came up with, is that the stars are screaming for their loss. The universe/heavens/sky has lost something fundamental and detrimental to the core of its being.
And here's where it comes back to me....and what I have lost, and what I feel is fundamentally gone from me and how it makes me feel. So I further thought about the process of loss, and I came upon 'helplessness'. The very act of stars screaming, is most distinctly a response to their own helpless outrage. So it's an impotency of emotion that the stars now have (I'm taking you through my thought process, in case you didn't get it by now) which is why they scream.....they scream out of outrage for a situation...Or they scream in outrage for someone else...
The stars scream when the victim has no voice, they scream for the voiceless. The stars scream when no one else can.
That thought, although a bit intimidating in its massiveness, is very comforting. Like the universe will take care of its own....that sorta thing.....*wanders out*
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Anyway, it should probably make for some good art in a few weeks once I process it.
But right now I feel like I am in the pits of hell and being punished again for loving so hard and I'm mourning. Actual mourning is going on because I have no other way to process the event.
It feels the same as a death though, so why should I not? I have no other resources with which to deal. Absolutely no understanding of things. And so, here I stand in mourning...buncha crap.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
And that's where I'm at, yo.
So. I'll be making holiday gifts for the next few weeks!!! YAY! Nothing takes my mind off of things like some pointless busywork. Although most times I loath the very idea of it, this is not one of those times. If I weren't making prezzies, I'd surely be rocking the circles once again. I still might knock off a few tonight...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I don't have a ton to say about this one...I think that if you can read it, it is pretty self-explanatory. I was thinking about the warmth of words, versus the warmth of 'the body', and let's just leave it at that. But if you need further clarification, the answer lies in the lyrics for Neko Case's song Favorite.
Thank you and goodnight.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I also look to her for the names of all things spiritual and cool, since she's more well-read on the subjects that I seem to be interested in...much more than I am....'Godhead. What's that?', says me. Well, she knows.
So I asked her to make this for me, and I think it's super cool. She's recently been doing some computer manipulations to very great effect, in my opinion. The neat thing, is that she was willing to experiment in a medium that she was not originally comfortable with.
Anyway, here's me, 'Animus'
More of D. Garzelloni's work can be found here.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Okay, yeah....but this recent piece, 'Warm' should be up soon, as I am spraying it this evening.
*relaxes into some comfortable nothing*